You are building the attraction and love all over again. Getting a chance to revisit the beginnings. And make new beginnings. Romance over and over again...with the SAME partner. And what better model for your son..
do you really think so? i don't know if i'm reading more into things than what is really happening.
i have a slight challenge this week - and i use the word slight deliberately - I am choosing not to let this 'take me down"
h just let me know a couple of nights ago that he was "going out of town" this friday until the following saturday.
this is his way of saying, as far as i know, that he's going to see ow. her name hasn't been used by either of us in conversations for many months now.
we were on the phone - a long long call and he found a chance to 'slip it in"
i did really well - didn't let my voice change and just casually went straight to details of when and where i was picking s up - as i would with anyone else.
then tonight - talking to my mom - realized that he was going to be down there on our wedding anniversary!!
ouch!!
except - and here's a very sad thing about the true state of our marriage- we never celebrated it once - in fact neither of us was clear on the date. both our mothers would call us the month of july and keep asking us to look it up and both of us were like what's the big deal.
only now i see what we were really doing....
i said to my mom, this year i want to acknowledge it. luckily she drummed some sense into my head that it was NOT a good idea to send him a text saying happy anniversary - thanks for our years together.
i've had mild moments through the last couple of days - absolutely nothing like the last few times.
i am slightly unnerved - they were meeting - either him going down there or her up here - on an average of every 2 or 2and half months, but she was just up here barely a month ago for 10 days. so the pace has upped slightly...
my main goal for the next 2 weeks :
every time i think of him being down there, i shall think of my turtles who are accompanying me on my journey - if you haven't met them:) they are Patience, Perseverance and Faith and they have been teaching me a lot.
they've invited a couple of others - Compassion, Focus and Self-Confidence to join us, but I've specifically asked this week for them to call Validation, Letting Go and Self-Improvement to join my little army of companions.
Bring it on Baby!! I read somewhere that one is never given more than one can deal with - so obviously i can deal with this.
if you have any suggestions, i could sure use them
thanks sg - for all your support
zig
ps. oh i forgot - that stupid turtle Doubt keeps trying to join our group and i have kicked him out on his a$$ so many times, you'd think he'd get the message by now!! what's up with him!!!
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
