Hiya Break. I hope my good friend Mach doesnt mind me stopping by. You are fortunate to have his input. He really makes you think.
If I may, I see that you are reading a lot of books on just about everything. And I am all for knowledge is power. But, the thing is, you cant let all this consume you.
It will make you craaazzzzy.
There are a few ways to figure out what you want to change about you. One of them is to take those things that your w has said and think about which ones are valid.
Then look at some people whose personality traits, actions and values you admire. Think about some things you have always wanted to try.
Think about who you want to be. For you. Then work towards that. Some days you make it, some you dont, but that should be the goal each day.
As you continue to look inward, a couple of things happen. You start to change, you start to become more confident and comfortable with who you are becoming. And then, you become more attractive to people.
I know it seems very negative right now.
But we dont know what the future holds. The only thing we can do it become the best person we can.
We are responsible for our own happiness.
So, continue exploring inside, continue moving forward on working on you.
