25's post was so great I'm bookmarking so JKS I can see why you're posting it around your house! LOL
I really like the part about seeing interactions as ways to show the new you. And you know what it can start small...so you weren't okay with acting as if, but you also didn't lash out and say something you'd regret you put the kids in the car and had a great day.
For me it started very slowly with simply saying each day I want to go to sleep and think I'm proud of the way I conducted myself. It didn't have to be growth or advancement in me and H's communication yet I just had to not to anything to screw it up! LOL so start small regain your footing. Take pleasure and pride in your interaction with your kids.
I love that in your retelling of your walk with your friend you describe the time of day. It's a turning point when we are not so wrapped up in our pain and drama that we can start to see beauty in the world outside again.
