The trust is gone on bothe sides. I still want to trust her but realize I probably can't. I am digging in deep and trying to see who I am. I have this whole time. It comes and goes. What I did was wrong and I am trying to learn from my mistakes. I admit that I haven't completely made up for what I did but I am still learning and trying. Right now I am at a point where I need to focus on our D and still try to work on myself. I also need to protect myself. Now it is just a situation where we have to do what is best for our D. And not having me around isn't the answer. I know I cannot control anything but my actions. Maybe one day things will be different, but right now things are the way they are.
