Yes - I think that is the problem that many of us have had at some point. Figuring out what we see for ourselves in our future. Getting clear with ourselves. Following our heart or our head (or a combination of both). Deciding if we are doing things for ourselves, the person we love or our kids. Yours is a more confusing situation that most.
I wanted to be with my husband at all costs. My heart told me that. My head knew I had an opportunity to escape but I had to give my heart a chance first. It took me a LONG time but I finally realized that he would NEVER change. Never be the man I needed him to be. I would never be first in his life. And for me - that was not good enough. I decided I was better off alone than to be with that man.
And it was only when I finally let go of the dream of "how it could be" that I was able to realize that I could still have a good life without him. I never ever dreamed that it would be with a someone new who allowed ME to be ME. Who loved me for who I was. Who enhanced my life - didn't "complete" me.
Tough questions we need to ask ourselves. But, like everything - we know when we know - what is best for us.
Sometimes time apart gives us good thinking opportunities. Enjoy your late night movie marathons - sounds like fun!
