Stronger

[mishka422]

Too true kml, but I'm just not that quick witted. Darn it!

I've been doing ok since he left Friday night. I stayed up far too late watching movies but that's just because I could, not because I couldn't sleep. Yea!

My momentary panic attacks are farther between now so that's a plus. There is such a distrust in my nature now and it really makes me mad! I used to be FAR too trusting of most people, now I'm so cynical that I trust NO ONE even those who have never given me any reason to distrust them. It really galls me.

Gabe has been enjoying his visit with his mom and best friend. He did go out with his friend and got hammered for his birthday which is a rarity. He is a super lightweight. He was so blotto he actually got up at a karaoke night and sang Sweet Home Alabama and remembers doing it! OMG! I would have paid to see that! His friend was so shocked that he did it that he forgot to pull out his phone to record it. He told me it was hilarious though.

My thoughts are drifting more and more to what do I really want for my future and it's frustrating me that I can't seem to focus on it. I think of what I think I want and then I talk myself out of it. So frustrating!