Hi Tad,

Very strange on how things are huh? I am at the exact point you are

and am experiencing much of the same. Although I am not a smoker,

the non motivation stuff is dead on. Just to show you how exact this is

turning out to be, I was told I was the "Lucky One" in all of this

less than 8 hours ago. In my book, "Lucky One" certainly seems

to be a synonym for "Winner" so you are definitly not a loser.

It is still way better to be a LBS any day of the week. There is

no way I would want to be in her shoes, ever!

You still got this Tad so don't give up!! I still think you are

very wise to come here and let us know how you are doing.

It is important that you recognize the great relationships with

your sons. That is one of the holy grails that are present for

us in this journey.

WS