I had a rough weekend. Well I had a super super busy weekend and I'm hormonal and even thought last week I felt very detached and was even questioning whether I had feelings for him, on Saturday night and Sunday and Sunday night all I could do was think of him and how much I missed him. It was tough.
I had a look through myDR book and in there I had a paper with my goals on it.
He would share his life with me - he's starting to do that He would invite me to do something outside of the house - he invited me to come along to dinner with him and S He would initiate texts - he does that now.
It's amazing how far we've come since the bomb drop at the end of May and yet how far I feel from him.
I emailed him on Sunday with the info on S's doctor apppointment. And I texted him randomly to say that I'd watched a movie filmed near where we're from in the states. He texted back to say he'd seen that movie and didn't think it was that good so didn't tell me about it. (The movie has a scene where a guy finds out his wife his cheating on him and tells her that he just wants them to be in love again and I was bawling like a baby!!) H then says he saw pictures of me and S at that event he couldn't go to. It looked amazing. etc.
This morning he met me and S at the train station. I bought him a sandwich from his favourite bakery to say thank you for taking time off work. I had it in my handbag and as I was walking to his car he holds out a container with food in it. I start cracking up laughing and pull out the sandwich. He misunderstood and goes oh you have food? and I said no, I bought you a sandwich.....and he "wow, that's very kind of you" He'd made a speciality dish from home that I can never get right. And he said you guys can have this for dinner. Then because it was raining he offered me a ride to work. I was giggling because it was raining and the 3 of us are cramming in his sports car. Then I say "does this have meat in it" because his GF is a vegetarian. And he goes yep! I even went and bought tofu (and I said what's the point!) and thought I'd try it. Then I got it home and said "sorry sweetheart it just doesn't work that way, so she didn't have any" he said sweetheart in sort of a rude way. And I did think that's a bit of a change. He's certainly standing up for himself.
So he dropped me off at work and I said thank you again for the ride and taking H to the doctor. I've been here 30 mins and he's texted me a picture of something funny at the medical center.
I don't know.....is he pursueing? He's very very laid back as a person. I did say in my email with the details of S's dr appt that it meant a lot to me that he was helping me with S and being there in sitches like this. I think that's something that was lacking during the M, me appreciating him as a co-parent. and the fact that he's still doing it means so so much to me.
