I'm a new person

[2chiquitos]

Took kids with H to swim class today. It was nice. He left just now to take the kids to his sister's for lunch and a swim. I was hoping (not expecting) that he would invite me. He didn't, but I'm ok...

I was thinking, we're at the point where I can invite myself but I'm not ready to. Weird, ha? I'd rather stay away from him. What if he says something else that causes a trigger?

I can also imagine him inviting me. Maybe not next time, but soon. maybe next 3mos??? That can be my goal.

Instead I'm gonna go watch the movie Ted by myself. Funny, but I really miss doing that! I get to sit WHEREVER I want! and eat all the nachos!! I don't have to share