It would only be temporary. Maybe the only dark you need is 8 hours looking at the back of your eyelids...


oh yeah, as in its bloody 1 am and what am i doing up, losing my beauty sleep!!!

i've got my groove back now - you're right i did get a bit overwhelmed the last couple of days.

i think what happened was that i made these goals, and then they started happening and i wasn't expecting them to, especially at the speed they were.

how's that for an ironic reaction to meeting goals. got to explore that a bit - as in - how screwy am i really here!!!

and then again - what does meeting those goals really mean? especially the ones regarding h. what does it matter if h comes here to eat or not?

ooh is that me feeling discouraged?

maybe some shuteye will help me see things in a more positive way tomorrow - in fact I'm sure they will

thanks for walking through this with me and especially for pointing out that i was overwhelmed - i guess a pretty good sign for that is when i revert to those long detailed posts

oh and btw - that joke - baaaaad!!!

how about one that can really make me laugh?

wink yourself!!!!

me 46 H 38
M10yrs T 11
S10
BD ow 8/11
h filed 9/25/12


"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"