Swimming with certain Turtles

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thanks for the reassurance vera - it scares me that i feel scared at the prospect of him coming closer - but as you say, it's normal to feel that. i suppose it would be freaky if i wasn't apprehensive

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How do you feel about getting back into an R where H hasn't changed at all? If he dropped everything and said he wanted to come back today, right now, would you have to think about it?

i'm really clear about it - you are like the fifth person who's asking me this in the last few days - suddenly everyone is asking me that.

i would say let me think about it - and frankly come posting here frantically (grin) and call immediately for an appointment with Joann

no seriously, i would do those things, but it's clear for me that i would say casually - oh, let's talk about it and explore that and NOT commit myself or be too enthusiastic. if he pushed i would say honestly that we need time to see where we're at and just start slow.

i want the real deal - i want to date, to have fun - not be too intense, i want romance and us delighting each other,i want us to be able to talk with ease and not hold everything too heavily and to let the past go and see it as a new beginning.

ooh that sounds candy wrapped!!

i have to think about it a bit more. but the first part holds - i'm taking it real slow