Blood on the Tracks

[tested metal]

Just read Kaffe's post on depression.

I am struggling because I don't want to be the guy that STBXW can't come back to, but I am sick of being used.

I don't want her to think that she is a horrible B, although she is acting like one, but sometimes I wonder if this is just her personality and the way she just is. There are generally bad people in this world you know.

This is my daily struggle. I don't want to save her, but i don't want to erase her out of my life either. But to stay in requires enduring more pain than i probably can handle.