Blood on the Tracks

[tested metal]

Well today I am having a setback. STBXW came to pick up D2 at my place and was going on a trip to a town 70 miles away to "see friends." No problem there.

She gets to my place, hands me a sippy cup that had curdled milk in it, and asks "Can I exchange sippy cup from you for the trip? I forgot to grab one." I say sure and we go up to my apartment and get it. Then she tells D2 to give me a kiss and say goodbye. Then she tells D2 to give me a hug. D2 wouldn't so STBXW tries for the group hug. She thanks me and leaves.

I go downstairs to throw out the trash and I see her putting D2 in car with her 3rd OM driving! I have asked her in the past to leave her boyfriends away from my place because frankly I don't want them to know where I live, and her last abusive OM is now stalking me at work. So I am a little ticked. Both at the fact that my home is now exposed and to the fact that she is again kinda rubbing my nose in it. BTW the OM is recently separated from his W.

Anyway, STBXW then texts me telling me she is going to have her hair done and then have D2's 2 yr. pictures. I replied "ok?" as she was not asking me go be there. Then she asked me to be there and maybe i could be in a picture with D2. I replied that I need to know exact date and time and that i would think about it. She replied, nevermind, i will do them myself and you can do your own.

Now, i understand she might be miffed, but right now I am still trying to get over the fact that this divorce is happening, soon, she has replaced me with some d-bag, and i am now being relagated to a half time father.

A family picture just does not seem right to me because I don't want a photo I have to look at of me pretending that things are ok.

I am struggling with if this is a pride thing for me or just having some self respect.

I tried to be the unburnable bridge, but she just keeps using me (and i let it happen from my end) and i keep getting hurt.

Part of me wants to be a total a-hole and have nothng to do with her except for dropping off D2 and emergency calls, but that isn't good for D2.