For me, having NO expectations of someone means that they mean absolutely nothing to you, and you mean nothing to them. But maybe that is a good place to be with H.
I think when you are really detached then the love that you have for someone can be put away in a box up on the shelf.
You can still have NO EXPECTATIONS and move forward with your life.
That love can be revived again at a later date but for right now you might be better off thinking about it the way you have stated above.
It is perfectly normal to feel the way you do.
Mirror work is sometimes not so obvious and many times more mental than physical.
The way we think about things takes TIME to change.
A 180 will be that no matter what he does it does not affect you. Harder to do than it seems but it is something to work towards.
