I'm a new person

[2chiquitos]

He got it shortly after I discovered the affair. So I've seen it. When he told me about it I was very positive, which really surprised him. He said, Oh I thought you wouldn't want me to get it because (OW) has one and you'd think I was getting it cuz she influenced me.

It's of an eagle and every time he points it out I say, yeah, the detail is really good.

Honestly, it's a really nice tattoo but it's what I connect it to that gets me down.

BTW: I went with him to one session. He also talks about wanting our kids faces on his body. HE HAS NEVER BROUGHT THIS UP BEFORE THE BOMB!

I associate the tattoo with his affair fog. He's still deep in it. We are/were struggling for money and he was borrowing money from his mom to pay for a very expensive tattoo.

Also, If I hadn't seen the tattoo today, something else would've gotten me down. He spent the whole day here and when he does, he can say or do something that triggers the past. I know, I need to let it go, but this is my struggle when we spend this much time together.

I don't think he noticed. I was pretty quiet today though.