So for the last two days I have maintained no contact with my H, other than bill stuff. Although he did call a few times, but I accidentally missed the call.
Its hard to feel distant, but at the same time its too confusing to have false hopes while he is having a relationship outside of our marriage that is hurtful.
I made arrangements to go home in August to see my dad for a week. I am going to sit with him in the hospital during his chemo treatments. My H promised me he would be the only one in the house, although I don't know if I can trust it. He also wants to take me to the airport and pick me up, that saves me money from parking my car so I will take it.
He just came home a few minutes ago to sleep in the other room because they are broken up. According to him they are done, he told her to have a good life, and he did bring all of his stuff home, oh except for the one tshirt she refused to give back. She is already calling, I am pretty sure its only a matter of hours, if not minutes, before they are back together. I will call this breakup number 2, since breakup number 1 happened when he tried to bring her to the house and she realized I still lived there and for about two days they didn't talk, then it was that they were just going to be friends and he needed to take her grocery shopping, and then he was moved back in. So like I said, I am not convinced at all that this nightmare is over.
He did hug me before he went to bed, and cried a little, as he said I love you so much and this hurts. I am still maintaining my distance and no contact, because like I said, the OW is relentless and won't stop calling or texting or demanding to see him. Anyway, thats my night. I am headed to bed with two dogs curled up next to me, and hoping I can sleep.
Thanks for listening to my crazy life.
M-28 H-28 M-9 1/2 years T- 12 years PA- 01/02/12 (still going on)
