New attitude, new thread

[ClingingToHope]

Another up and down day. Last day of nine-day vacation with girls and all goes pretty swimmingly until the car ride home when D9 throws massive fit because I wouldn't come off road --- again --- because she was thirsty. We were 25 minutes from home finally after battling traffic for three hours, and we'd eaten 45 minutes earlier.

I lost it briefly when she threw a flip flop at D13, who wasn't doing anything.

As soon as the storm passed she was apologetic. We get home and she's very sad to be leaving.

Their mom picked them up. I found out she and Uncle Fester are taking them out of town to a hotel. I am a little bothered by the example they are setting. But I'm not all that broken up. XW is Fester's problem now. I know soon enough the ice queen who blames her unhappiness on everyone else will show up. In fact, the more they are together, the faster it will happen.

No. I'm broken up right now because the longest stretch of one-on-one time I've had with them in three years is over. As up as most of it was, the down parts get me very down.

I just want my daughters back.

I have LOTS to do now and I have no energy without them.

Update on the OKCupid girl. She put her profile back up and messaged me with her full name so I could find her on Facebook. She said she isn't ready to date. She has her kids 24/7 and was unsuccessful finding a babysitter for lunch and just feels like it's too much.

I found her on Facebook and sent her a message saying I understand. Schedules are hectic and the lunch date is a standing offer. The two relationships -- however brief -- I've had since the split up were online things where we were communicating, they withdrew for a while and then came back.

Maybe history will repeat itself.

KML, I think the online thing is different for men. Women, at least I've read, get a lot more emails than men. I've gone months at a time with no one responding. Now, OKCupid and I have become "Facebook" friends and I reupped Match this morning and get a response from a 37-year-old who is currently separated.

So for me, that's a lot of action.