In home separation? Off / On? Still WAW? Dunno

[breakdownbill]

I think I might have actually detached - completely!!

Here's a quick recap of what's happened the past few days...

Wednesday: my W & her friend (girl) went to a SPA break & stayed over at the hotel - been planned for months. I knew she was definitely going with her friend & not OM - they came by to the house before they left together.

Here's the thing, while she was gone I didn't even notice, I watched a couple of films - had a great nights sleep.

Yesterday a package arrived for her & this morning the packet was left on the floor with an invoice hanging out. It was for some really kinky underwear, suspenders (she's never wore anything like that before) and... a vibrator.

Now it might be the big kid in me, but I couldn't stop laughing & none of it even bothered me.

I don't think that the underwear is for my benefit, (it might be - but highly unlikely) and it made me start questioning a few things she's been saying about her work & needing to stay over when she visits some new customers for a project in work.

The really weird part for me, was feeling like I couldn't care less what she did. I'm pretty sure I cared last week, why isn't this bothering me? Do people go through phases of just not caring less what their WAS does?

I'm meeting up with my best friend tomorrow, going round to his place for dinner & a few drinks. I've not told him what's happened & hid it from him because I wanted to protect my W & M, but for the first time I'm thinking I want to tell him & I am accepting what the situation is.

The only real niggle I've got, is that once I tell him I can't take it back & what if I feel differently next week?

Could really use a bit of advice on this guys

Bill