The woman who you keep up on that pedestal needs to be removed.
It will be better for the both of you.
As it will help you realize that you place her here right now as a defense mechanism for your ID. The power of self can do this. But you need to realize that some times crap happens because people just make poor choices due to weak boundaries and poor moral choices.
This allows you to look at everything more realistically.
Allows you to detach and rebuild your self esteem.
You will not go dark with children unless you have a go between. It is unrealistic.
I would only go dark if she intensifies with OM or OM2 steps in the picture.
Just stay dim. GAL. And take your time to respond.
And no kissing or hand holding or hugging.
Save that for your wife.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!