Hey 2TP! I totally understand how you were feeling when you were talking to your friend. I'm hoping you're feeling better and please know that there is someone out there looking to love someone just like you want someone to love you.
I'm torn on the lawn thing. Was she texting you to let you know that she wanted you to pay to hire someone to do it? Or just letting you know "she" couldn't do it, and would hire someone?