You definitely don't sound like an idiot. I have a fantasy still about confronting the broom and bi!ching her out just because I think it would make me feel better. Of course, I ran into her and ran like a scared rabbit so.....:)
How about using the stop sign technique when those thoughts crop up. You know it worked before, use it again!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!