I would start out with POSTing your story here, that way you get it all out of you.
Do not tell it to you H as that will only add more pressure to the sich. Let us be your sounding board, not him.
Get out and GAL. DETACH. Believe none of what he says and half of what he does. Have NO EXPECTATIONS. Take care of yourself, breathe, eat, sleep, exercise.
You are on moderation right now on the forum. SO post in small frequent posts until you get off of it.
