Went out for dinner, had a great time. Lots of talking and laughing. Hit a couple of places after dinner and at the end of the night she said she was too tired to drive home and was going to sleep at my place. Shared the bed, but nothing physical. She stayed in bed to sleep longer after I took the Ds to daycare and went to work.
Points of Interest: I leaned in to give her a quick kiss. She said she doesn't kiss people she doesn't live with. I laughed and said whatever. She then asked me if I spoke to him. I was confused on this and said who? She said you know who (OM). I told her no, I have no reason to talk/email/text him. She said she hasn't talked to him in a week or his mother as she isn't returning her calls. I told her it was a game. She asked what that meant. I told her he wasn't going to call her so she would miss him and call him. She denied that. I told her it is all a game. We want what we can't have. He wants to go dark on her, I am going to F that up for him.
She made the comment in the morning she didn't want to confuse the Ds. (Believe none of what they say and half of what they do?)
She never asked me for any help financially.
Going to work on no dates with her for a few weeks. I am transitioning to the new position so my pay schedule will be off for a couple of weeks. Going to have to stretch my finances during this time but there is a windfall at the end. So not taking her out won't be hard.
W is hesitant with me at times. I am trying to stay out of the friend zone by trying to hold her hand and kiss her (rated G kiss). Sometimes she will hold my hand for a long time. Sometimes she pulls away. Sometimes she will kiss me when I pull in, sometimes she turns away. It feels like she is holding back. I don't know if the dam is about to burst or that is how it is for her now.
Gotta get back on my GAL track. We have a trip planned for an out of town concert in a month. My goal is to scale back activities with her until this trip.
M-40 W-33 D3, D4, SD13 T 9 YEARS M 5 YEARS ILYBINILWY APRIL 2012
