Gosh I don't know why but reading these last posts on forgiveness and being humbled have me in tears.

Not crying out of sadness or anger, but release. It just has reminded me of how angry I had been, at everyone, how much faith I lost..and remembering that H is simply on his own path. Letting go of ego and allowing humbleness in. H has his own pain and issues to deal with. He doesn't want me with him right now and that hurts, but it doesn't lesson any of his own issues, and the winding path he is on. He has previous and more recent pains to address no matter what. I am a side story right now.

This is my path and he has his own. I was taking so much in the past, and now I want to give. Give love, not take love. Give compassion, be empathetic. That's the person I want to be. Inner peace that I have given the people I love what they need.

Anyway...lots to think about. Thanks for this conversation.

((((( to you all))))

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home