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Alright Zig, I'll post on forgiveness before hitting my pillow.

Yesterday my W had her second session with her IC. I asked her how it went. She gave me TMI that it stung a bit.

She brought up my MIL who I had a significant amount of resentment at the beginning of my sitch. I felt that my MIL was a big reason why we found ourselves in the midst of D. I had dark feelings for her.

It took me a little over a year to finally forgive her. The bomb was dropped in Nov 10 and it wasn't until she gave me the nicest b-day card Dec 11 that I finally let it go. She signed the card, "Love, MIL"

She was watching how I was carrying myself during the most difficult time of my life and she let me know that she admired me for it. If she only knew what I said about her, she would shoot me between the eyes. Not healthy of me at all. Certainly not the person that I want to be.

Something else that my W mentioned yesterday that her IC recommended was for us to get tested for STDs since we both had dated other people. I agree wholeheartedly. Of course the first thing that popped into my head was her having sex with OM and it upset me. That raised my spidey senses telling me that I still need to work on completely forgiving her. I didn't say anything, but I did get quiet. It bothered me.

I know that sometimes my pride gets in the way of my forgiveness. It is something that I am working on. My W has apologized several times. So it's on me to get there.