[LITB]

Zig and NG,

Thank you for dropping by my thread. You both seem to be doing very well these days.

The "Forgiveness" song certainly had me thinking today. I had to share it as it did speak to me.

Journaling:
As my W and I begin piecing our marriage back together, today I got a glimpse of some of the challenges that lie ahead.

We are selling most of our belongings in NM and we had a little miscommunication. We have 2 ATVs that we are selling and she had a tentative buyer on the line. I was fully aware of the buyer, however it wasn't a done deal.

During lunch today, I sent her a text message letting her know someone else might be interested and I was asking them $1K more. Her response: "okay". One would think we are on the same page. About an hour later, she sends me a message saying that the deal with the first person is "a done deal".

It annoyed me, because she could have simply told me that the first person was probably a sure thing. She was annoyed with me, because we agreed on a price and she felt that I went over her head.

Not a big deal in the big picture, however I felt like it was a great opportunity to learn from. I let her know that I was upset and I wasn't going to internalize my feelings. I told her that I will let her know when something upsets me and she should do the same when I upset her.

Initially she apologized, but then she dug in her heels and it felt like the same old M. She was focused on the ATV's and to be honest, she drew me in. I was frustrated. I felt like she wasn't hearing me. We finally let the misunderstanding go and ended the call on a positive note.

I had a taste of what my life would look like without my W in it and I learned to enjoy it. What I am saying is that I recognize that my tolerance level for petty silliness is very low. This next stage is going to take some patience while my W catches up. Not to mention, I still have a long way to go myself as we transition back into a family.