I had a reminder of how far I've come today. A friend took me aside to tell me the coworker I'd dated after me and H's split was seeing guess what? another person we work with. I'm not sure how this friend expected me to react. I just said oh, okay. I had my suspicions but that's cool. And my friend said It's okay if you want you want to say it's not okay. I almost LAUGHED. It was just another reminder about how unconcerned with other's lives I am now. and it's freeing. other people's choices are just that their choices. I don't even have an opinion. And why should I. You guys might not recognise this but it's huge. I used to have an opinion on anything anyone was doing!
On the way home (in the pouring rain..gotta love the UK) I was thinking to myself that I'm happy. I had looked at H's fb page. And his posts were funny and he was even making plans with a couple i didn't know. But I just thought he sounds happy, and I'm happy for him. All I wanted was for us both to be happy and we are right now. I'm really happy. I don't have anyone in my life, but I'm still really happy. He spent so long not having friends, not going out, not wanting to drink or socialise, so I started doing it on my own. And now he's doing it again and I'm glad. I know it sounds crazy a few weeks ago I was bitter that he wasn't doing it with me...and now I'm just happy for him.
