Kevd111

[Kevd111]

And thanks to you, stunned, for your commentary as well. Sorry, must have been writing my own at the same time.

So I'm up on the strats, I'm feeling good knowing that my mindset HAS changed. In a way it was a learning experience in that I need to live too and nobody ever put how many hours they worked on their gravestone. It would be a tragedy indeed if my wife misses out on this because our marriage has the chance to not only survive but to THRIVE and be even better than it was. If the choice is made to leave, I will make someone an excellent boyfriend/husband down the road (might be too scared about marriage at this point).

At least I like to think so. Despite knowing the logic of the situation it is still a hard thing to hear when someone you love says the don't love you back. It's one thing if it was a college romance or something, but I've never had this much invested before. Self esteem has been an issue here for sure, and I really am getting tired of the sadness.

Thanks again for the words you've written and the acceptance into this forum.