so - i was trying to get s up, who was too tired to move, and decided i'd take the trash out - i'm in the driveway and h pulls up. he had told me last night that he was stopping by to get some tools but i hadn't expected him so early
i said s isn't up yet - why don't you go in and cuddle with him. so he hung out with s in the br - first time since he moved out - about 15 mins. i went about getting breakfast -offered him eggs - he refused - messed around a bit - got his stuff, came back in - didn't seem in any particular hurry to leave.
i just acted relaxed and as if i didn't notice anything unusual - i did have to run to my computer and delete the history, because he was going to go on line to pay a bill - whew!!
when s was almost done with breakfast, h said ok i'm taking off, and i turned and asked him quite happily if he could drop s to his class and save me a few minutes. his answer oh yes of course, why didn't i think about it myself. so he hd to hang out for another 15 mins - which he did, staying in the house.
so , as an amusing side note - when he first pulled up, my first thought was - oh how do i look - i hadn't been up long myself and wasn't expecting him to drop by - i knew from his reaction - trying not to look at me, that i looked pretty damn good!! just happened to have slipped on this long linen strappy thing when i woke up this morning!! ha ha!! (one that he always liked me in!!)
so that was weird to say the least. normally i would have expected him to stiffly take the tools and rush off. he landed up being here for 45 mins.
off to get ready for my intern.
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"