the days of barely any convo and not taking off the sunglasses LOL
can't believe you remembered i wrote that - and gosh i can't believe i'd forgotten that myself!!
i think there is a very good reason why our minds let us forget stuff!!
was he hinting? i have no idea - can't say it didn't cross my mind slightly - but face value right? talked to my mom last night and she kind of asked the same - and i joked - he's gonna have to come outright and say it, heck he's going to have to really ask and the only answer i am going to give is let's think about it and talk about it further.
b'day night - in the driveway - when we were alone - very strong vibes - didn't mention that i sort of also threw out there - there's that other b'day present if you want it - he gave me this hug and we talked about it and basically he admitted that "you know how i am, i'll do both very easily" insisted a million times that he was not comfortable doing it . i think when he saw that i wasn't getting upset he started twisting the conversation to r talk - and also insisting that the reason we couldn't was because it would make me think we were getting back together!!
thus the call later when i told him that no more telling me what i think!
so brit - i don't know - a few weeks ago, i would've clung to that statement, no doubt. now - face value!!
i was a bit nervous - thinking i'd gone overboard with bringing that up, yesterday - but his voice mail and the exchange on the phone - well - all i can say is that he didn't withdraw and go all funny on me as he used to
who knows brit -
as for reminding ourselves how far we've come - oh yes - that's really much much more important now. how could we have a virtual party to celebrate? - could we start a "party thread" for a day where everyone "drops in" to celebrate ? we all stop by to socialize?
hugs to you
zig
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"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
