is this the end....trying not to give up

[Cadet]

And when you meet him you want to look hot, dress hot, smell good and be the person only a fool would not want.

[tonibertha]

Definitely... my brother says that he will try to regain the upper hand when we meet. so i'll just try to validate and say nothing other than 'i'll think about what you've said and get back to you'.

really nervous...

[Cadet]

Definitely... my brother says that he will try to regain the upper hand when we meet. so i'll just try to validate and say nothing other than 'i'll think about what you've said and get back to you'.

really nervous...

That sounds good.

Take a deep breath.

If I tell you not to think about the color blue.
But then I say it is a blue room inside of a blue house, with a blue car outside.

Have you stopped thinking about the color blue yet?

Being nervous is normal but he will smell it.
Be yourself, and do not worry about him or what he thinks or does.

[tonibertha]

So yesterday i sent H an email saying:

We can meet up this Saturday @ this mall and swap the stuff. 4pm?

It's been over 24 hours and no reply from H. Not sure what to think.

[tonibertha]

Still not heard from H. I'm wondering if he saw my email as a sign of pursuit and has back off?

i don't really care about seeing him now. My ego is bruised at his ignoring me (it feels like rejection), but i'll live. Tho i still need my mail....

I've been pondering what to do if he doesn't reply at all, or if he replies on Friday (which will feel like short notice to me). is this game playing on H's part? I'm confused...

[vera be fierce]

Do you still have keys? Can you just go get it yourself?

[vera be fierce]

Or - do you know when he will be around? Could you just show up unannounced, and say something like "You didn't answer my text so I thought I'd just stop by to get it"

[tonibertha]

Oh, he's moved so i don't know where he lives (long story). Just so weird that he sees my need for my mail as an opportunity for PA behaviour

[scaredsilly]

Does he have a phone that he's "allowed" you to know the number?

[tonibertha]

Oh yeah. He hasn't been running from me since i moved out. He's been asking to talk, and i finally (after 7 months) agreed and suggested a time and place. And he's now taking his time to reply (been almost 36 hours0, in some kind of power play...