Thanks ss and Verab! That's the sad thing, I have talked to a DB coach 3 times and Cheryl was extremely helpful but that was a while back. Obviously I am blundering from her instructions here... One of our topics was perhaps me actually filing may be the thing that breaks her lose. What I know is that I've been forced to live like this for a year and am at the point of not being able to take it anymore. Either she has an epiphany by August 27th or she will have a decree with my signature on it that day.
And this is the thing, I GAL out the wazoo I am always busy. I was dating a girl that was wonderful but stopped because that wasn't fair to her. The "trigger" for me the last few times has been seeing this music she's been listening to. I could stop this by changing the password to my streaming account but then that would be viewed of as a "jerk" move by her I'm sure. Obviously I'm mind reading into the music which I can now clearly see is the root cause of my relapse. I just have to not pay any attention to it...
me 38 W 30 T 3 M in 05/2010 Separated 08/2011 Stephchildren (all hers) SS17, SS12, SD8 I filed 8/27, she countered I filed response 9/5 Anxiously waiting on the judge!
