My story, my progress, my hope

[Tinman]

Thanks labug and scaredsilly, I know you are right and grateful for the comments.

I am not sure how I could have handled the situation last night any different other than just to not be there. I was listening and trying to understand but the story about her and her friends just kept getting deeper and worse. This friend of hers treated her so bad yet my W just let it go (non of my business I realize). The part that I got chocked up on was when she was telling me about how W explained to her friend how hard life was for her. How her ex-husband (previous one not me) left her in a financial crunch and how now she is in this other situation that leaves her being a single parent and trying to make ends meet on her own. She talked about how uncomfortable it was for her to get naked in front of these 4 other couples when she is the only single woman there (that time). Previously she made it sound like it was something she was uncomfortable doing in general but last night it sounded more like she wanted to but because she was the only single person it would just be too much and also everyone else was already in the water and she had a one piece on so she would have had to strip out of it in front of all those other people.


I said very little. Yes I was hurt and got choked up when she started talking about us with such finality. It is hard to see her act like this.

You are both right in that I need to give her space and deal with my own issues. I still think that what I text her last night needed to happen. I told her I loved her but I was letting her go. I told her that if she wanted to talk and try and salvage our marriage I would love that. I let her go so I could stop hurting and being her door mat. I will still treat her with love and kindness but this will give me the space both of us appear to need.

I am sure after a few days I will regret it

Now for a long bike ride and a good cry!!!