Honeypot: I know you didn't, I did. That is the problem... I can't get over the fact that he must think his needs are more important than mine, and that really hurts. I never felt you were defending him Honey, it seemed like CeMar was.
H and I are seeing a sex therapist; same therapist but seperate appointments. He is to read Divorce Busting and Allies In Healing, and I am to read Courage to Heal. I'm waiting for them to be available at my library.
My plea for support or advice was due to the fact that I need to come to grips with the fact that H doesn't or hasn't respected me as a woman/wife! At this point I'm really not sure if this damage is repairable. I'm afraid that all the therapy in the world won't ever be enough for me to genuinely "want" my H again. It's as if our relationship has been platonic for me for years... it's like subconciously I fell out of love with him shortly after we married. Why the hell did I choose to block it out and have children with him?
