Thank you for your words Grace. I am very lucky to be living here with so many amazing things going on and things I've been involved in. I wish I could tell you all the details but don't want to put everything in public....why are PMs disabled again? LOL

I think you're right he might have been slightly confused or unsure of how to act because I'm giving him a different person that he got in the past.

So I texted him this afternoon about something else and he replied that he could do that. I said you're such a star you know that? (Cheryl would be proud) We went back and forth then he said I'll be with you in 20 mins to pick up the wok. Again, big points in stating that he was ending the text convo instead of just leaving me hanging. Note all the positives!

He came over and I was happy and fun. I even made a joke and put a sprouting onion in the wok, because he'd texted me a picture of an onion tht had sprouted when he was still living on his own. He said oh come on. I said I thought you were a budding new onion farmer. We had a good laugh. And joked about a lot of stuff. Convo was easy. He was asking me for tips on how to cook something in the wok. Jesus H you wanted it hahahaha. Actually I thought it was funny and was nice about it all. It was good I think. I felt "close" to him if that's possible. I even noticed he STOOD closer to me.

He told a funny story about how he was going to have the house to himself and he thought he was gonna have some hot dogs and go all out he could eat meat (because she's a veggie) and I said yeah because you know those are what 50% meat? And he looked at me really warm and laughed with me, it feels good to feel at ease around each other we haven't done that in a long long long long time.

We took the dog outside and I said to him again that I didn't want him to feel that way about the stuff in the garage. That I don't see it that way. and he goes yeah I don't know I just didn't want it to seem like...and I said I don't feel "used" you might be using me but I don't feel that way and laughed. And he said no, not at all in fact I don't want you to ever feel that way.

In a way I hate that we're in this place, especially when he's here and there's no animosity and we are just laughing. He was talking to S and he farted and I said oh geez the more things change the more things stay the same and he turned to me and pointed and what he was wearing same jeans he's had for a million years and opened up his jacket to show me he wearing a tshirt from my university. I shook my head and we laughed.

So I'm now off to a show with a friend and her son. and I'm bringing my son. GAL in full effect. It will be interesting to see if he "touches and goes" but we did make plans for him to come over on Thursday and us do the lawn together.