I feel terrible. I feel like the whole time this has been going on I have only been worried about how it is making me feel and not W. I have only been concentrating on what the sitch is doing to me. My actions caused this. I did this to us. She has been trying to tell me how she feels and what has done to her but I have only been worried about what is happening to us. I hope I can let her know somehow that I realize that now.
