First off...I hope you are having a better morning
Secondly, This is part of it buddy. This pain that you are feeling is part of the growth that you are having now. Nothing good just happens. We go through extreme pain at times in our lives, to have amazing spurts of internal growth.
What happens if we allow it, is that it leads us onto a path that we are unfamiliar with, a path that we would have never taken if things would have remained the same.
It involves doing things, and experiencing things that would turn most people inside out. The easy way through this, is to simply walk away. Walk away and let our anger fuel our path that remains un-altered, because we chose not to learn from what we have lived.
You have met these people in your life, and you know some of these people. Something deep inside of you has whispered that you didn't want to be like them. You didn't want to be angry your whole life. Something told you, that you wanted a better way. Something told you that you didn't want to be that old lady at the hairdresser, that sits there and bitches about how bad her EX treated her, and how much of an asshat he is...
You have a chance to not be that person, and in time, you will see the gift that you have been given. She didn't do any of this TO you....she did it for her, and if you let it, she did it for you too...
There are times, when we don't feel like standing. With getting papers ? The game has changed a bit. Now is the time for you, and for you to NOT be that person that she is stating false information about. You don't have to scream it from the mountain tops...all you have to do, is live that.
I read an expression a long time ago.....and it has been with me since...
If I find 10,000 ways something won't work, I haven't failed. I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward---Thomas Edison
All you need to do, is to find ONE way that will work for you...
Take a look at probono.net...( no relation to Sonny Bono )
Second Judicial Circuit Pro Bono Project
So, here you stand, at a crossroads. There are multiple ways to go from here.
Which one leads you to where you want to go ?
Which one leads you to internal peace ?
Which one leads you to sitting under that hair dryer ?
Which one leads you to the legacy that you want your children to learn ?
