it made me sad to hear that you were scared to be open about your dates.
the whole purpose, i think, of this board is to get us to focus on ourselves, and to become more self aware, confident and strong. if that leads us and our spouse back into the M, that is great.. but we all know that does not always happen and that we are learning who we are in order to be okay no matter what....
it sounds like you are taking your growth and self awareness with you on the dates... and it is changing how you date and think about relationships.. sounds like more growth..
you are being okay no matter what..
((( )))
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13