New attitude, new thread

[ClingingToHope]

Yes, GM, I'm trying to get to that point. It's just a long process. D9 made a point the other night -- in the middle of a meltdown -- that she wants to tell me about her times with XW but she doesn't because it makes me sad.

I didn't rise to the bait. When she's in meltdown mode she throws everything out that might get a rise out of me. But the truth is buried in there, they know I really don't want to hear about their "other" life.

D13 and I had a good talk Saturday. She has been in a funk most of the summer. She says she has all these "voices" in her head telling her she's worthless, she's fat, she's ugly.

It's worrisome and I've been worried about it for two years. XW is finally catching on.

I told her I have those issues. With me it's clouds. I will feel good, the skies are clear and then something is said, or I see something, or I get a text and storm clouds roll in. I can feel the anger swirling like a sudden thunderstorm. And then I start getting down about myself.

I will say this few days -- even with a rough 24 hour stretch -- has been very good for me with D13.