Need help. H just showed up, all sun tanned. It's hard for me not to take a butcher knife to him. I had to lock all the doors of the SUV we use to tow the boat so he had a car load of people in it to take boating. What fun they all had while I sat in this damn house in BFE with no one.

I feel like sh!t. I don't want to cry or be upset around him. He's mowing the lawn and will come in for dinner when he's finished.

How can I turn my mind around? I just feel so uncared for.

M:63
H:53
S:41, SS:28, SS:25, SD:23
M:15
T:16

Bomb:12/17/11, "I think we should go our separate ways."
H moves to his mother's house, 4/1/12
12/21/12: H moves back home, piecing