We started by talking about my S at camp and how he's doing. That at least was a good ice breaker.
Then we proceeded to the meat of the conversation:
I apologized for saying what I did within earshot of my S. I said we need to have any of those type of conversations outside of the handoff times and perhaps I should've stepped outside and closed the door.
I told her I was seeking God's direction with every step I'm taking and I want to be sure he is releasing from my promise I made to Him when we got married. She countered by saying I needed to work that out with God, and that shouldn't hold up a piece of paper or any documentation. She was intimating she is tired of the limbo.
At one point, we got on the topic of what's going on at her place when my S is over there. She asked if I thought she was getting into drugs or something. I just told her I didn't know, but I was concerned about the environment my S was in when he was over at her place.
Somehow we got on the topic of the debacle a couple of weeks ago where I picked my S up in the middle of the night because he walked in on my W and OM in the bedroom. She defended it by saying her brother walked in on her Mom and Dad during her childhood. I told her it was different, because she's not married. I said it should've never happened, and it was very wrong.
OK, she is chastising me for saying I don't trust her in front my S, but what she allowed to happen was no big deal?!?!?
I also mentioned by S's complaint of taking in second hand smoke when he's over there, just to make her aware.
I told her I would the financial documentation to her, but it was likely I would use a L of my own to help me get it to her L. She seemed to understand, but she also seemed a little paranoid.
We ended the conversation with me telling her I would have an update for her by the end of the week if not earlier, but I probably wouldn't have everything to her L by Friday.
There were a couple positives though. She did say she is seeing a Christian C and really like her. She did go to church for the first time since Easter and took my S. And - she does want to have a relationship with our S, which I am grateful for.
So - this week I am going to interview a couple of Ls and get the ball rolling with getting the financial documentation where it needs to go.
Part of me is wondering if she's ultimately doing me a favor. However, I will keep my own nose clean and continue to GAL and seek God's direction. I know I will be more than OK regardless of the outcome.
