Harrier, thanks for stopping by. You are right...I should have just said "thank you for saying that".

The cycle is killing me - it's just causing both of us so much pain. I know that I can stop it...I just don't know how.

The proposed counseling is going to be with a MC with both of us there. It's not IC for W.

W and I met at a party at a mutual friends' house. We were different because I hadn't ever hurt W and she didn't view me solely as a person that hurt her. Over time, that is how she has come to see me. I think I have become a better person than when we met...she only sees the person that hurt her for years. There's nothing I can do about that...I have spent the past 3 years trying to fix our M (and inherently, fix W). It is a losing battle and I need to come to grips with that.

BITS
M: 35
W: 35
T14, M11
D9, S6
ILYBINILY: June 09
Unofficially Separated (long distance): 1/2/11
W came home: 3/17/11
EE: July 2012
Dropped the rope: Oct 2012
Piecing: April 2013
Not piecing: April 2014
Stuck.