I have spent the majority of my life looking for "the next shiny thing" whether that was moving, a new job, a new vacation/adventure, a new man, anything to plan or "get my teeth in" to distract me from the here and now.
This is the first time in my life that I'm not wishing my life away in order to get to the next thing or place or person.
I am really happy and confident. I did the whole he's in a relationship...I should be going on dates too! That's when I had those two dates in April with highly successful men that I acted sort of crazy on/during and self sabotaged. I wasn't ready, I was doing it for the right reasons. I think actually when I did tell them those crazy stories from my past I was attempting to push them away.
I approached this completely differnt and my new no expectations, no plans mentality was the same. I just got to know someone...didn't let myself get swept away as I would have done in the past...good looking, nice, really into me...okay let's go with it. No not so much anymore.
