Thread #7 - What goes down, might come up.

[25yearsmlc]

to HER, perhaps

all the talks that "make her feel bad" (b/c you comment on her mistreatment of you) are such a drag....but you pay the bllls and help with the kids...


but FB listens and validates and blah blah blah (and has no idea of the baggage she carries, what a drag she is around you, or how rude she can be or how "overworked" she feels based on...whatever)

and THIS silly stupid "BOY", may be what finally tips you over. It's ironic but frankly, at this point,

if losing your "downer of a roommate" to OM is what it takes for you to see how far off track she is from becoming a wife to you in this decade, then so be it.

I'm truly sorry. I'm sure it'll hurt and your ego will take a wallop

EXCEPT

you already know what the lucky LBSers know, and or have done.

You know in your heart of hearts you have given your best. Never forget that.


You have to leave the results up to God and stop "trying too hard," and all the rest of the crazy stuff SHE causes.

i saw this prayer in a book by Marianne Williamson on "The Gift of Change".
I thought of you. I hope it'll guide you in this time of pain my friend.

"Dear God,

I lay this problem on your altar and ask that you shed light on this trouble.

Please interpret this situation for me.

Please guide me so I can see what I need to see.

Please strengthen me w/courage & faith, to do what I need to do.

Help me to forgive and raise me above my fears,

so I may move towards you and a happier more loving life."

Go be happy Navy, you deserve it. You may not believe that, deep down, but it really is true. I hope your IC helps you see that. And check into "Essential Experience" as a long weekend workshop. You may only need to take one day of leave. IT's Quite profound and not for couples, per se. Mostly it's individuals who go and it's life changing.

You'll feel better about yourself and act w/more clarity and intent than you ever have before. It's on the east coast and it's not cost prohibitive given what THIS life is costing you, it's drivable and housing is offered...(I've attended flying in from Alaska...h went, after he saw MY changes...) Just give it a shot. I want to shake the fog from your eyes and restore your heart and self esteem. Not sure an hour a week, even with a good t, will do that quickly enough.

I think you need it to clear your head and see this for what it is my friend.

Again, I'm so sorry.