Thank you, thank you, thank you everyone. I guess I was venting. SS, I didn't call him because when I do he sounds bothered. I've learned not to call him lately. I also wanted to see how far he would take this 'no calling' thing. In the end what happened, was that on the day that they were all arriving (he was coincidentally travelling with my mother, brother, and another family member on the same flight), my mother called me. Yep, my mother called me on her mobile and said, "Here, let me give the phone to H." i found it to be silly for my mother to have to call me just to hand the phone over. Later that day when they all arrived, I called him to ask about something, and he was sounding ever so nice and happy and open. I was like, Wow, this is a change! And then he realised (and said) he thought I was my mother. I said, "Oh, that's why you are sounding so nice to me." He didn't say anything, but carried on being jolly and open.

So, anyway, everyone arrived and in good spirits. We had a GREAT weekend. So, very good. He was being his normal self and it was just lovely to be around that. I too was very relaxed and happy.

There was no touching or physical affection on the first day. The second day, once again - really lovely, and enjoyable - almost back to our old active and bouncy dynamic. At night on the second day, he held my hand in bed - something he used to do a lot when we were together. Slowly, affection was rising.... I definitely recognized my H again. We talked and discussed everything as we always did, and I felt we had such a good relationship. My own feelings were right at the surface. In fact, I was beginning to wonder why at all we had split up - great friendship, dynamic, attraction, and I could feel his own feelings and love coming up to the surface too. He even said a couple of times to people here, "I am with my wife." I was like WOW.

I could see us dating again back home, and continuing to have a good time.

Again, a really fantastic active third morning. We ML twice and it has been fantastic.

So we went out fishing, and had a great morning again. When we got back, we sat down with my parents and had a long morning talk about this that and the other. After that discussion, something changed in him. He grew quiet, and stayed that way for the rest of the day. He retreated into his cave, and I could feel him thinking, thinking, thinking. I asked him if he wanted to talk about anything, and all he said was, "I'm just pondering." Subsequently, his affection decreased and he was 'separate' again.

The only thing I could think of which might have set him off was that we were talking about my cousin's upcoming wedding in Italy. My parents asked me if I was going and I said I really should. I didn't ask him if he wanted to go simply because I don't know what our official status is yet (we haven't talked about any of his issues at all - there has been no R talk whatsoever). Other than that, we were just talking politics, the economy and so forth. Nothing personal or major in any way that I could see.

I don't feel it as deeply (his change of moods) as I used to. He was always somewhat moody, but this was a little more than usual. So anyway, that is a nice surprise. I remain affectionate, but it does make it hard when it's not being reciprocated.

It is Monday now and we have 5 days of time together. I am making the most of it, and we shall see.

Thank you all for your encouragement and words of wisdom smile I'll let you know how it goes.