not sure what you were referring to on the good job! but yeah, i'm definitely rocking it!! grin!!
in terms of getting it - oh no - i am a long way - you haven't seen me in between, in my "lesser moments"....but i will be proud to say that those lesser moments are getting lesser and lesser!!!
what i've finally gotten:
that i have to be determinedly happy anyway, whatever is going on around me, that i have to find the happiness in what i have already, not in what i am wanting to get - that's just extra. that i can learn to give other people a lot of space and time that others have the right to their opinion (hard one, i still slip up with s) that i AM very capable of keeping my mouth shut (need to do that way more often) that everything someone else says does NOT need a reply or opinion (still practicing) that i don't have control over what others decide that it's possible to be happy even if i don't get what i want
what i haven't gotten yet but really working on now
how to really listen and hear what the other person is really saying how to be more sensitive,and soft and gentle (my sag personality causes me to be a foot in the north battering ram sort of chick, but learning to restrain that tendency!!) how to understands where i'm at really and where others are at how to not be judgmental about what others are doing even if i say i accept it how to completely let go of other's decisions how to really focus on the things that are important to my growth and independence - i've got the theory, but haven't fully put it into practice how to take care of myself - i've always depended on other and still do
the list goes on, but that's a start. as for preaching to the choir - good grief - i think i'm giving too positive of an impression here.
but sg - i seriously wasn't expecting that caliber of a compliment from you. it's hard for me to acknowledge compliments still (yes i'm working on that too) - and i'm almost embarrassed that you wrote that (ok being really honest and open about how my own underlying lack of confidence makes me have that reaction)
besides if i'm honest - i don't feel that i am "db'ing" successfully in that h is still on his course. and then at the same time i realize that i am because of the place i have reached - and understanding that that's what db'ing is truly about - where i'm at
so KLA is a seminar, and you can get the tapes - i'm still not understanding - and you didn't give too much info at all - i'm a real info - intense person - love every detail!!
so even if you think i'm the choir - please please preach - this one is just walked in!!
zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
