I'm a new person

[2chiquitos]

bustingout-I read your posts and WOW you're right that was a lot, but great advice! How are you doing today? How's Germany treating you?

We had a really nice day today. Took kids to swim class and the flea market after. Met a couple who just moved to LA from NY. Made me think of how nice it was to talk to people who don't know about our sitch.

The day was hot and H wants the kids to tan (without sunblock). I'm afraid of skin cancer and so you can imagine how we used to conflict on this. So I lathered up kids and H with sunblock and we bathed in the sun at the flea market. He makes fun of me because I leave the kids and him white with sunblock. good times

Today he said he wants us to have separate bday parties for D1, for the sake of my family. They can't be in the same room as him. So he wants me to have a small party at my house (without him) and he will have something at his parents house (w me).

I hate the thought of separating Ds party but I think he's right. Honestly, I think I will resent my family. I'd rather just not have anything at my house and have something at his.