I am really in pain right now. I don't have a clue which way to turn. I just want to speak to her but I know I have to pull away. So desperate and scared, I cannot actually believe this is me writing this. Whenever she went away before she'd always ask if I missed her, and I'd always joke, "So were you away then? I wondered why it was quiet." before giving her a big kiss and a huge hug. What the hell has happened to my life?!?
