I am missing the companionship of W. That is what I am fighting for maybe. It hurts and I miss it so much. I just need patience. She asks me for favors and things. Just yesterday I was at breakfast with my mom and she asked me to bring her a muffin while I was talking to D. Of course I did it. I've always been dependable and given her whatever she has asked for. The day before she wanted to borrow truck for work. I told her sure, it is both of ours. But just earlier in the week she said she doesn't need or want anything from me. It gets frustrating to always be there for her and not get anything in return. But I guess that what love is. Just doing things for the other without expectIng anything in return.
