And a text from someone - a close friend. And I HAVE NOT been out and told everyone that my W is doing. As far as everyone else is concerned she's at home or doing the shopping or... You get the picture. Not at all sure that the W is playing that way.
Here's A reason for the vacillating -
You will eventually get to that point. It just takes time. The only way to get there though is truth. You have to look at the truth of your situation and as hurtful as it might seem - face it and realise that perhaps your marriage is not the thing that ultimately will make you happy, content and fulfilled.
You think holding on to her is going to do that. But how many times are you going to keep trying? �Perhaps you haven't given life enough of a chance to show you that there is something better out there, because you are holding on to what you so desperately wanted this to be.
A constant needing to please someone to keep them, is not what life, our lives were designed to be. Life is there to be enjoyed. We only have one life, and it is short Mac. Don't waste another second.
There is someone out there that will love you like you have no idea. Will love you because you are you - not because of what you do and don't do for them. Life is too short and I promise you - there is life after what you are going through - and it is good.
